My heart is broken
OK I have posted twice on this site one to tell my story and one asking a question. Now I have to come back and report that I recently found out that my MM who promised me he was going to file for legal separation in January, now has a new baby with his wife. His birthday was the 29th of November and I sent him sweet birthday greetings and a voice message before he got into his office. As we were emailing he told me that he would be leaving around noon because his parents were coming into town for his birthday and they wanted to take him shopping, well he had been doing an awful lot of leaving work early lately and none of it was for me or to see me, I wondered if his wife would be spending his birthday with him as well so I called her job, of course I would have hung up if she would have answered and I really wish she had but someone else did and I asked for her and that is when the bomb was dropped on me, the woman on the other end of the phone said " she is still on maternity leave" My heart dropped and my eyes filled with tears but I got the strength to ask again in case I heard wrong and the same was repeated, I hung up and called him immediately and asked him was his wife pregnant, he said no she is not, I said then why is she on maternity leave, he said because she already had the baby.
I could not breath, I could not think, I asked him how he could do this to me and he said it was just one night, he had been drinking and woke up to her on his lap, he swore it was only the once. I told him he was having such issues leaving to children ages 10 and 9 so how are you going to leave a newborn child, I told him "you lied to me this whole time, you have lived these last nine months knowing she was pregnant knowing you had had sex with her while all the while telling me how I could not go out with a male on a friend only basis, how disrespectful that was to you!" and the whole while you knew she was pregnant. He said he did not know how to tell me, that in his mind he was just delaying his own execution because he knew if I found out I would walk away. He told me he was still going to do what he said in January he was not happy and this child was not planned and its not like it was with his other two children. My mind is so upset now , my heart is broken, I love him so much and I want to beleive he is going to do as he says but its trust that is broken now and how he has talked to me in the past about the way I saw things while reiterating respect and honesty while he lied or never even told me this had happened. And then failed to tell me she was pregnant.
He said that was the reason he had stopped physically seeing me because he could not face me knowing his situation. I want to wait and see but I dont know if it would benefit either of us even if he did walk away. What do I do :(
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